From good to great… tHimerosa style.
It has been a humbling past couple of months. Taking down the ego and finally looking at myself and moving towards being critical but not to the state of bashing myself up when I criticse myself.
I would like to reflect on what happened today. It’s gonna be a crazy mess of thoughts so do try to stay with me.
On being an Entrepreneur
It is no easy task, but neither is it a task beyond my means. It is just that I am in a slightly different situation where I am taking over my dad’s business and expanding it in the way that it is synchronous to how our times have changed. However, because this is a legacy business with its roots deeply imbued in trading and traditional business processes, I am restricted by many barriers such as my father’s way of doing business, expectations of being a girl and someone fresh (or rather still an undergraduate). Challenges aplenty but rewards are definitely high. I have a lot of fresh ideas and I have the energy and drive to kick it across. But I still fall into my own idiosyncrasies. The most common being, “Hey, hey, give me that recognition! It’s me here!” Yeah, it is just this part of me that’s still very deep rooted. I am changing it. Switch state.
There is also the issue of getting a proper job versus doing a business. Well, let’s just say that in all jobs, there’s no stability and confirmation that you will forever be employed unless you have employed yourself. Yes, I am well placed to move ahead and clinch the jobs that I want but do I want that? I would like to instill a culture of progressiveness, self-development, excitement, commitment in the company that I run. Teamwork, alongside with the traits of leadership, to move towards a common goal of providing value for our customers. This is what I innately want for within myself, and I want to translate that to something tangible for my team.
One day, I will be just like that pizza maker (who owns a pizza conglomerate in the US but calls himself a pizza maker) and call myself a printer. 🙂
These thought process that went through me then inspired me to move thimerosa@wordpress into a blog that talks about this entrepreneurship journey. The journey about an Asian young little thing, working with many restrictions to start, expand and change the way businesses are being run. I will document the troubles I meet, the challenges I overcome, the thrills and high I get and most importantly the fun of it all! This blog will anchor me and remind me that life is about fun, enjoy every moment of it!
On Ego and Enlightenment
The enlightened have the capacity to have ambition without ego. What about me? I am still playing ping pong and oscillating. Damn. I recognise that and I want to work on it. I am really quite addicted to the feeling when I start achieving and I feel my ambition flowing through me but without the ego. Why did I say that? Cause I still had the “I am good, how come you’re not looking at me!” attitude sometimes. That gotta go, if I want to do great things. Absolutely.
I admit that my pitching skills are still not there. There are many angles to look at how one improves their pitching. One angle is, when is a good time to pitch? And what should be said during a particular time. How can you change your sales pitch on the fly? So many questions, I want to iron them out, but it seems like priority is still on my academic stuff. This is something I want to complete and move on to the next chapter of my life. Hence that’s how my priorities rank at the moment.
On social skills
I want to be the social magnet. I want to be able to charm, engage, understand, communicate and network. I like these qualities and I want to build them up. The first step on stepping out of this shell, is to start overcoming my fears one by one. Bring out the courage, bring out the lessons that I learnt, bring out and practice. There is no other way. Be on my toes and psych myself to handle social situations all the time.
On time managment
If Steve Pavlina can do it, thimerosa can do at least 1/2 of it. He did double degree in 1/3 the amount of time normal people did, while holding on to a job at the same time.
- Do a Thesis
- Organize a conference
- Start a business
- Maintain a relationship
I must prioritise my time appropriately and kill procrastination! And yes, really enjoy the entire process!
Life is bright. Life is fantastic. I am not going to short change myself anymore 🙂 That Porsche 911 is here!
Thanks for staying with me all the way to the end. Till the next time.
Entry filed under: Reflections.